If a lot of you “fans” had to live your life under the microscope that we have to, you would go insane. Even on a more miniscule scale. Whether it be the indies, TNA, Wwe, etc. The nerve that some of you have is disgusting and downright bullying. But because you want to have your “15 minutes” to judge someone and say hurtful things online behind your Phone, or computer just to feel relevant , you think its OK.
It’s not.
I am to a point now where I am fed up with the constant BS that people spread about me, and spreading stories about even some of my closest friends, acting like they know the full story when really they only have pieces. Half stories. And even some of the half stories are bullshit. You have no right to judge us, as you yourself are NOT perfect. No one is. Not one of you.
This is by no means a pity party. I’m just done keeping my mouth shut about everything and letting random people feel like they can further slander my name and think it is OK.
I’ve been through a lot of shit in the last couple of Years of my career. Things people don’t know about, and things that were blown so far out of proportion that it cost me my dream job. I fully expect people to lash out at me again. Call me a liar, and everything else that they called me before all of this died down. But it’s OK. I have nothing left to lose at this point. So now I am going to tell my story.
Back sometime in 2014 tna reached out to me to do a knockouts one night only against Madison Rayne. I happily accepted because it will have been the biggest thing that happened to me in my then 10 years in. It went well. They asked me back by offering me a “deal”. Long story short I was dicked around about a contract for about 9 months before they decided awesome kongs return was a bigger deal than they anticipated, and signed her instead. I was happy for her, and very sad at the same time. She herself said there was room enough for both of us there but office didn’t see it that way.
They invited me back for a couple more sets of tapings to job me gloriously to all the people I ran through prior. Which is fine.. But I knew why they were doing it. They changed a lot of stuff about me in the process, several people telling me to do stuff a certain way. I tried to please everyone even though multiple things I was being told to do was contradictory to the other. I tried. I don’t feel I was given a fair shot to showcase what I can actually do. I know that some of the girls there were reluctant to work with me based on assuming I would hurt them. I feel like I was treated unfairly by the office there. Even though I know for a fact I had Christy Hemme pulling for me. I’ll be grateful for that. I know she wanted me there. I just wish that others would have given me a fair shot. The one positive is that I got to hold the knockout championship for 5 weeks on national television. No one can take that from me. I got to wrestle in Tokyo Japan on bound for glory. No one can take that from me. I just wish I was given a bigger chance to shine.
I’m leaving out a lot of the shitty things that would make them look 100 times more unprofessional if I repeated it. I won’t be that guy. I also don’t care who gets mad about it.
During this time, Sara del rey found out I was never actually contracted with TNA. So she contacted me and I sent her all the criteria for pursuing a tryout. I was invited to the June tryout of last year with only about two weeks to prepare. I busted my ass. Dropped 20 pounds and upped my cardio as best I could. Let me just say that there is nothing you can do to actually be fully prepared for something like that. In that 3 days, I endured the hardest physical obstacles and cardio drills. That tryout was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I can’t express to you how painful and physically taxing it was on the body.
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