- 09/08/2007 (9:08:30 am)
- Georgiann Makropoulos
Please keep your thoughts coming…
Your observations on the recent Benoit news & such were a good read. As for why Chris Benoit killed his wife & son, I believe that it did have an effect on his judgements & abilities to reason. BUT, it was not the main catalyst.
I never knew him personally, but taking in accounts of what others said of his recent behavior (compared to his past & the numerous findings that came out during the investigation & media blitz), it was probably a combination of factors weighing on a troubled, damaged mind.
Here's a guy who lives for the industry he works in. He's reached the age of 40 & it's becoming even more of a challenge to maintain the work-rate & image that HE expects out of himself (besides what wrestling expects from him). Then there's the stress of life at home with the family & life on the road without them. So much going on & so much that he misses out on. Your wife misses you, your growing son needs you. I can imagine that a marriage can get pretty rocky, especially for wrestlers...
And each wrestler's story is different. Each one has his own boulders to bare. Perhaps there were issues with young Daniel. Maybe Chris' relationship with Nancy was lacking in several respects. We'll never know now.
...The stresses of everyday life, the losses of personal friends in the business over the years, the untold amounts of physical pain Benoit put himself through while wrestling such a grueling style; depression, doubts, loneliness that can set in at any moment. Just watching the nightly news can leave someone with a deep despair about the world's future & the qualities of life if they dwell on it all long enough... and everything else that might have been weighing down on him.
Chris Benoit was a man who reached the brink. And with the unknown damage to the man's brain, it became increasingly difficult for him to cope with the tribulations of his life. Couple that with the use of steroids, or even just massive levels of testosterone, and you have a man who may have lost complete control of himself. And it led him to making the worst mistake of his life...
Hypothetical: Imagine if an 85 year-old man with dementia injected as much testosterone as Benoit did. I wonder how much control an orderly would have had over him in a nursing home? What would the rage have been like? How much control would an old man have over himself? What would be the result? I can't imagine that it would have been good. That's for sure.
And Benoit KNEW what he did was wrong. The bibles left by their lifeless bodies, in my opinion, showed direct intent to express in metaphor what Benoit wasn't able to express through words. His remorse, guilt, and perhaps his hope that God would guide, protect & keep his family on their way... and maybe some desperate plea to the Almighty for forgiveness, or to express to the world he left behind that he wasn't as cold-blooded as the impression of his horrible acts of brutality told that he was.
Maybe Ted Dibiase was right. Maybe it was a mercy killing.
But the act itself is not one of a sane mind. More so of a clouded, disturbed, fragile state...
I am 29 years old & Chris Benoit is one of the biggest reasons why I love pro wrestling. I've watched it since I was 9 or 10. So many hours of great memories. As time went by, you distinguished your favorites from the cast of thousands. There's always something that stands out to you about your heroes.
Chris Benoit was one of my heroes. In your heroes, you look for the qualities that mean something to you. That YOU identify with, perhaps. Chris Benoit was a man of passion & extremes. One of respect & example (before the tragedy). One of few words, but pin-pointed accuracy. He put up with years of obscurity in WCW, battling through all the politics & barriers... only to finally reach the pinnacle of his career, finally, when he won the World Heavyweight Championship at Wrestle Mania...
and a few short years later, he fell so far...
No question. Chris Benoit murdering his wife & son are an unspeakable horror. My heart will always go out to them & their families. I think I'll always contemplate & have dynamic, mixed feelings about it all.
I'm not a religious person, but I do believe there's something out there. Something spiritual, meaningful. Call it God. Or love. You could even call it The Force.
Chris Benoit committed acts of evil, but I hope that his soul doesn't dwell in darkness; damned & alone forever. I hope some sort of light finds & surrounds him. And leads him back.
Thanks for your time. Sorry for the long novel. BUT, when you asked for feedback, this is what was on my mind.
Keep writing great stuff.
Colyn T. Spencer
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Here is what I think about the Chris Benoit Findings: On the eve of the
NFL season, even though it is technically here (thanks Colts and
Saints), I want to say that not only does the wrestling industry need to
wake up and pay attention, but so does the NFL. With also the recent
Rodney Harrison suspension for HGH and that coach for the Cowboys, it is
also imperitive that both WWE and the NFL have a REAL drug testing
policy that works. As for what was found with Benoit's brain, I am not
surprised. With all the hits he took, I am not surprised in the least
that his brain turned out like that. Both the NFL, and WWE , but
especially the NFL must take concussions much more seriously than they
do with all the hits to the head that the participants sustain. The
health of these athletes must be paramount.
Terri Bey
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